My Bundle of Joy

I've waited for this day for quite a while. It's actually one of my biggest fear- delivering a baby. I've heard countless stories of how painful childbirth would be.

I've always love babies but never really thought I could go through it. As age is catching up, I left it to God's hands and all through my 9 months, I felt my baby was protected, probably through the prayers and well wishes of family and friends. Even then, I must admit that I still worry.

When week 40 came & passed, my anxiety grew, but my doctor assured me baby was okay. I'm also trying to avoid a C-section. But finally, we planned for her to be induced on week 41. As it got closer to the date, I got extremely worried, not only about the baby but (shamefully) of the pain.

But there's no backing out now, the baby has to come. It's not knowing what's about to happen and what is to be expected that had me so worried. Some say it's like your back breaking and others said it's the worse pain ever. And a few said even with epidural they could feel the pain.

At last, I had a 'show' a day before I was to be induced. Somehow I was very excited & didn't worry about the labour pain. Probably because the contraction was so bearable. I had my breakfast, informed my doctor and checked myself (together with my hubby and mum) into hospital. Then the nurse checked me and boy was it painful and my fear grew again. When my doctor came, I was so tensed that I had some kind of gas to relax me and it did wonders within a few seconds. After which, the doctor gave me the green light to have my epidural.

I moved during the insertion of the needle to my back and thus it was very painful. But the doctor explained to me why I'm in pain and it helped. Very quickly it was over. Told the doctor I could still stand the pain and to give me minimal dosage but in a matter of minutes, I could not feel the contractions anymore.

So far so good till my dilation stopped at 3 cm for about 6 hours. My mum went to the hospital's chapel to pray and so did I. Finally, it slowly progress a cm every hour till it was 5 cm. Doctor said the baby cannot be inside for too long without the water bag and gave me another 3 hours for it to go to 10 cm. But thank God, within an hour, I was told that I'm ready. We just have to wait for the baby to descend.

By the time the doctor came, she gave me the good news. And I could feel the contractions. Thus, I could push. And soon I found myself pushing and less than 5 minutes, my bundle of joy appeared. :) ;) :)

It was after that, that I could feel the intense contraction and loss a lot of blood and had to have a transfusion. That was the scariest part of it all. But luckily the doctors were good.

The week after has been smooth thanks to the care of my hubby and in-laws. Though baby wakes up every hour for feeds.

Even after a week, I find myself thinking back of my delivery and instead of being the scariest experience ever, it is one of the most wonderful day!! :D